“O Lord, I invite your searching gaze into my heart.”
I watched as my daughter loaded her school book bag into her car and unloaded her whole cup of cereal at the same time, dumping it all over her backseat. What a way to start the day!
You know the word, “don’t cry over spilled milk.” I didn’t, but deep down I felt I might. It wasn’t over the empty cup. It was the emptiness I was feeling about our relationship. Do you come up feeling this way sometimes? We so often dump our worst selves on the ones we love the most. It’s heart wrenching and heart revealing.
Psalm 139:23 urges us to be searched ~ “Search me and know me, see if there is any offensive way in me and lead me in the way everlasting.”
My heart search that day? It came up ~ “sour milk” ~ curdled and bitter ~ I had become sour about our broken place and this was no good at all. I had to pour it out and let it go. No way we’d get very far if I stayed stuck here. The Lord gave me grace as I traded in my bitterness.
When’s the last time you went before the throne of grace and asked for a heart search? What would you find?
His search uncovers us and leads us in His better ways ~ It’s the great exchange!
Lord, You perceive our thoughts from afar and are familiar with all our ways. (Psalm 139:1-2) There’s nobody who understands us like You do and nobody who can mend us and love us like You either! Search us Lord. Amen.